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Wednesday, June 1st, 2005
6:37 pm
More Useless Quizzage

You Are The Key Character
"It's what I was meant to do."

You are the true enigma. No one knows much about you, you do not understand much of yourself, and your life seems to carry no purpose. Yet regardless of everything around you, everyone knows that you are here for some reason, even if no one yet knows what it is yet. Things seem to simply fall into place for you, almost as though some force is working either through you, for you, or around you. No matter your troubles, you have been sent here to unlock something. This is your destiny.

Which Classic Story Role Do You Play?
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This was an interesting quiz, in that I had a hard time answering the questions and seeing what relevance they had to the answers. So what does this answer say about me? I'm a lost and confused Frodo, I think. I just liked the picture. Hehe, I just noticed that the font in the picture looks suspiciously like "Ringbearer."

Current Mood: excited
Wednesday, May 25th, 2005
2:08 pm
My personality defect
Yet another quiz. I swear that might be all I do with my LJ.

My personality defect is
You are 42% Rational, 57% Extroverted, 42% Brutal, and 57% Arrogant.

As the Lord as my witness, I swear upon the good book that you are indeed the TELEVANGELIST! Characterized by extreme arrogance, self-assurance, and extroversion, you would make a very charismatic leader (or a very despotic one). On top of that, you are also more intuitive than rational, predisposing you to a more spiritual or emotional outlook on life. Thus, you are thoroughly irrational. You also tend to be rather gentle and considerate of others' feelings. Clearly, you would make the perfect televangelist. Emotional, extroverted, arrogant, and gentle, you annoy the heck out of people who have to listen to the feel-good, intuitive garbage spewing from your mouth. Not only that, but people may look down on you as a self-centered prick. So while you are gentle and genuinely care about others, it is quite clear that you still care about yourself more. Why is your personality flawed? Because you are too accursedly extroverted, emotional, and arrogant. So preach your irrational message, brotha-(wo)man! I assure you, no one will be listening!

[Of course, I'm pretty much right in the middle of all of those qualities, so either I don't, in fact, have any personality defects...or I have all of them. Plus, some of the questions were kind-of skewed. For instance, "I am very humble." If I say "true," I'm being arrogant about my humility, and if I say "false," I'm still arrogant. I also take issue with the fact that my belief in spirituality counted as toward intuitive as opposed to rational. --Ed.]

Current Mood: sleepy
Thursday, May 12th, 2005
10:26 am
I don't have enough to do
More useless blogthings.

Your Linguistic Profile:

65% General American English

25% Upper Midwestern

10% Yankee

0% Dixie

0% Midwestern

Because clearly, I couldn't have figured out on my own that I've always lived either west of the Mississippi or north of the Mason-Dixon line, nor that I pick up accents everywhere I go and actually try to speak broadcasterese.

Current Mood: sleepy
Tuesday, May 10th, 2005
5:53 pm
I blame Cassie.

The first one I thought wasn't very accurate. The second I was like, well, maybe... Then the third I was like, Nuh uh! Oh, well, okay, a bit. Maybe. Fine! I give in! The fourth, fifth and sixth were spot on. That made me think when I got to the seventh one that even though I wanted the "marriage is sacred" answer that Cassie got, this one's probably more accurate. So I'm a tad worried that the eighth might be true...

The Keys to Your Heart

You are attracted to those who are unbridled, untrammeled, and free. [Because those things are different? --Ed.]

In love, you feel the most alive when your lover is creative and never lets you feel bored.

You'd like your lover to think you are stylish and alluring.

You would be forced to break up with someone who was emotional, moody, and difficult to please.

Your ideal relationship is open. Both of you can talk about everything -- no secrets.

Your risk of cheating is zero. You care about society and morality. You would never break a commitment.

You think of marriage as something you've always wanted... though you haven't really thought about it.

In this moment, you think of love as something you can get or discard anytime. You're feeling self-centered.

Current Mood: nervous
Friday, May 6th, 2005
11:22 pm
I've set a new low...
For some reason, staying at work until almost midnight on a Friday seems worse than working from home until past 3am on Tuesday/Wednesday. That could just be me though.

The good news is I'm not real stressed. I plan to take some time off, too... Er, but not this weekend. :)

Current Mood: determined
Monday, April 11th, 2005
11:08 pm
(Can you read that title through gritted teeth?)

This whole working ten hours some days, working most Sundays thing is really getting me down. I want free time! And it's not like it's college where Spring Break is coming up. I've been crunched since March and I will be 'til May. Or like, NEXT May -- hard to say. Sorry to any of you who, I don't know, wanted to see me in the last few weeks. I'll be in my office...

Current Mood: stressed
Friday, April 1st, 2005
2:51 pm
The Female Psyche is Weird
When it comes to shopping, I exhibit the typically female characteristic of needing to try on every possible option before deciding on one. I needed new tennis shoes, so I went to Lady Foot Locker at the mall. The saleswoman rubbed me the wrong way -- she was just too brusque -- but she was busy. Anyway, I found the shoe I wanted by the only had an 8 and a 9, no 8-1/2. She told me she thought the 9 was fine, even though typically I'm an 8 or an 8-1/2, and I figured she should know, so I bought them.

But now every time I wear them, I'm bothered because I don't know what the 8-1/2 feels like. It might have been too tight, but any sign that the 9s are too big reminds me how much I dislike the saleswoman for telling me the 9s were fine. I'm also mad at myself because I later found a New Balance store and didn't go in to see if they had 8-1/2s. Now I've worn the 9s outside so I can't take them back, but they continually prick me with discontent. But what if I go try on 8-1/2s and they do fit better? Then I'd feel bad for having spent $60 on a pair of shoes that don't fit. I can't win!

Current Mood: sort-of frustrated
Sunday, March 6th, 2005
12:31 am
Not a good end to the day
So the day didn't start out terribly auspiciously because Safeway, the 24-hour grocery store, was closed last night when I needed something. But that all worked out, and even though I had to go in to work, I was surviving and I had a good time with my friends. Then I came home, logged in to my work computer "just to kick off a build," tried to get all fancy, and locked it up, so I can't actually do the one small thing I had to do. I can ping my other computer but not log in, the "force shutdown" command isn't working, and I left my cell phone in my office so I'll have to go in tomorrow. On top of that, in four or so hours of work today, I wasn't able to fix ANY of the things I was working on. Not one! Of the ten bugs that need to be fixed before Monday, and one PR dropped (just ignore what of that you don't understand ;) ). So I was feeling pretty lousy and then the cat got on my lap so I thought, oh, that's sweet, she wants to sit with me. Sometimes I think she gets jealous of the laptop and wants some affection. But I caught her with the laptop as I was closing it and moving it out of the way so she got all mad at me and started attacking my arm, which naturally didn't feel too hot, so I tried to get her off my lap, but her claws (which are too long because I haven't taken her to get them cut) caught in my fleece and so she fell off my lap at an awkward angle and I think she got hurt because she paced very slowly away and is just sitting on the floor in my office looking at me reproachfully. (Okay, the reproachfully is my anthropomorphication.) AND I can't call anyone because (1) they're all asleep and (2) my cell phone is at work and my landline can't make long distance calls. (I guess it could, because I think I have a phone card somewhere, but see (1).) So I wasted the day as far as work goes, I still have to work tomorrow, I got nothing else done, I've injured my cat through commission and negligence, and I'm too upset in my pity-party to go to sleep, which is what I really need to do.

Maybe I just need chocolate. Or God, one.

I really wish I could talk to my cat! We have serious communication issues in our relationship. I can't explain to her why I do mean things and all she can do to express her displeasure is pee in the dining room or scratch me.

Current Mood: distressed
Wednesday, March 2nd, 2005
2:33 pm
Philosophical question
What could be the occupation of man, were he not driven by consumerism nor consumed by the effort to survive?

jmcphers and I were talking about consumerism today, and the ridiculous pressure this culture puts on us to keep consuming more more more! He commented that a "paltry" fraction of the population is all that would really be needed to keep everyone in food, clothing and shelter. What, then, should the rest of them do? After all, consumerism drives modern capitalism and that drives a lot of technological innovation with which we are, arguably, better off than we were before.

This really goes back to the question, "What is the meaning of life?" I don't know if there are any right or wrong answers, but let's put on our high-minded, idealistic yet practical hats, and try to think about what the best pursuit of man would be.

For example, if I could get everything done that I needed for survival (cook, clean, pay bills, etc.) in four hours a day, five days a week, I would entertain myself with stories (reading and writing). Undoubtedly I would still not talk to God enough, but there would be more time to talk with people about him if I used it well. But is Art enough to occupy humankind's many ambitious minds?

Current Mood: busy
Thursday, February 24th, 2005
12:55 am
Cool little tidbit
My sister goes to a Christian college and they had a fun message today from a guy working in the Middle East. Parasummary:

"If you love your enemy, you'll die. If you hate your enemy, you'll die. If you ignore your enemy, you'll die. Only one of these options comes with a resurrection clause."

I just thought it was cute. :)

Current Mood: awake
Thursday, February 10th, 2005
11:14 pm
Yet another personality test
Jonathan made me do it.

I don't know how I feel about that extroversion thing. Just because I never stop talking... ;) I guess it makes sense that I'm more extroverted than friendly... Hecky darn, I'm straight up the middle on most of those, aren't I?

Big Five Test Results
Extroversion (70%) high which suggests you are overly talkative, outgoing, sociable and interacting at the expense too often of developing your own individual interests and internally based identity.
Friendliness (50%) medium which suggests you are moderately kind natured, trusting, and helpful while still maintaining your own interests.
Orderliness (48%) medium which suggests you are moderately organized, structured, and self controlled while still remaining flexible, varied, and fun.
Emotional Stability (51%) medium which suggests you average somewhere in between being calm and resilient and being anxious and reactive.
Openmindedness (54%) medium which suggests you are moderately intellectual, curious, and imaginative.
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Thursday, February 3rd, 2005
11:47 pm
Baby Got Book!
Oh my gosh, if you're Christian or know anything about Christianity, this is simultaneously SOOOO hilarious and sooo scary.

Thursday, January 27th, 2005
11:33 pm
Managed to get similar results twice in a row!
Why are we always amazed when personality tests are accurate? Think about it.

Enneagram Test Results
Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||| 50%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||||| 54%
Type 3 Image Focus |||||||||||||||| 62%
Type 4 Hypersensitivity |||||| 30%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||| 46%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||| 30%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||||||| 38%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||| 66%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||| 46%
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11:18 pm
Oh no, I'm journaling instead of blogging!
I'll probably break down and blog it, too, but hey.

ESTJ - "Administrator". Much in touch with the external environment. Very responsible. Pillar of strength. 8.7% of total population.
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But I was almost:
ESFJ - "Seller". Most sociable of all types. Nurturer of harmony. Outstanding host or hostesses. 12.3% of total population.
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What the--! Salesperson?! I guess that fits, though. I'm a schmoozer. I may look like an extrovert, but I don't really like you. ;)

Enneagram Test Results
Type 1 Perfectionism |||||||||||| 46%
Type 2 Helpfulness |||||||||||| 50%
Type 3 Image Awareness |||||||||||||||| 63%
Type 4 Sensitivity |||| 20%
Type 5 Detachment |||||||||||||| 60%
Type 6 Anxiety |||||||||| 40%
Type 7 Adventurousness |||||| 23%
Type 8 Aggressiveness |||||||||||||||| 66%
Type 9 Calmness |||||||||||| 46%
Your main type is 8
Your variant is sexual
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My enneagram test results, in rank order of close scores, marked me as these three types:
I must be strong and in control to be happy.
I must be impressive and attractive to be happy.
I must be knowledgable and independent to be happy.
Hm, those first two hit my character weaknesses right on the head! :)
Tuesday, October 26th, 2004
2:34 pm
My apologies to LiveJournal
I'm a Blogger. Nothing against LJ, really; I was just first corralled by a blogger, not a livejournaler. I hear you can link the two, somehow... But that might just be a rumor. My blog is http://elvenfair.blogspot.com/, and if you want to hear what I have to rant about, feel free to entertain yourself. I got this LJ so that I could comment on the blogs of my awesome friends (and their friends) -- but only the awesome ones. ;-)

Current Mood: apologetic
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